JOSHUA

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

11:33 PM

connection camp is finally over.
hard work to those oc's tat planned it
thanks a lot(although u guys wont be seeing)
still remember last year
when my welfare head was camp chief
my group LILLIES with the pink hair band
is a memory
now its me bringing memories to all my other friends
suppose to feel a sense of achievement
but why do i not feel so.
i didn't plan well
didn't make an effort to see what could be better
didn't even think that campers need water
failure.. total failure..
and i still tot it was a success.......
at first
disco night proved my point so strongly i couldn't help but say i failed
its like left with only 10+ ppl with half being GPs
welfare gave comments which i could have avoidded them
i cant manage to think out of the box, think in their shoes, think for them to enjoy
have i really succeeded?
or just tat success is a fantasy.......an illusion.........not reality...........

the way i am .

Saturday, September 19, 2009

11:08 PM

many things happened lazy to blog
nobody reads it anyway
sorry to my 2 daughters
not tat don wan let u all see
just tat don wan u all to have more burdens
is just a place for me to vent
recently welfare had this long talk
said everything i had in mind
mayb i was too straight forward
mayb i didn't make myself clear at the start
but one thing is for sure
i failed.........
no leaders has been like me before
putting personal emotions into work
leading to almost a collapse of supposedly the strongest sub comm
failing terribly
hope connection will not fail ba

i dno why i'm feeling so.
but.....................
hai.....................
don step into something u are not sure boy....

the way i am .