i'm sorry i cant be there to take care of u
i really want to
missed u more and more by the day
hope u recover soon

the way i am .

so is very very long b4 u will see me with this uniform again! hehe

the way i am .

i don wan to say this but........
I AM PERFORMING FOR LOLLIPOP MAN!!!!

those who can go try to be there la!
den after tat we can party!!
hehe.
tats all folks!

the way i am .

First day of school!
saw my new class
looks siannn
everybody looks sian
all the cliques is from the same class last year

all lessons ended early!
missed chicken rice mann!!
last lesson ended 2and a half hour earlier
so went to crash derrick business law lecture
but slept thru
hehe.
BORED LIKE SHIT!
went to pass dear man tou
hehe. glad she liked it
after that had a talk with zumbi cause saw yu lan!
den jacob and jun chai came too
CHEESY CANNOT RECOGNISE MY VOICE!!!!
haha.
after tat went for 5 min of welfare meeting and carried on with dance
heard tat i might have a chance to perform for lollipop!
hehe. very high siaa
hope can perform!
will inform u peeps again!

decision not made
trapped in denial
time not on my side
shld just blame myself
struggling.......

the way i am .

Social gathering finally over liao.
happy and sad
its been a wonderful academic year this year
ups and down
definitely memorable

It all started when my 12 years buddy told me to join this unknown camp
as i was rotting at home i decided why not give it a try
that 4D3N became a blast of a time
nvr in my life have i experience anything like it
Epsilon is the name
crazy daddy, mummy and siblings
thats when brotherhood was formed

events after events
joined CSCC welfare
planned events
bonded even more
knw more ppl, understood them
experienced happy sad angry and all sorts of nonsense
found true friends, made real friendship
From FO camp to FO camp
From being led to leading
Epsilon to Zumbi
a lot of things have changed

The once innocent us eating chicken talk at foodcourt 3
till now experienced politics
don even knw if we would ever have another movie outing
or just talking our hearts out anywhere
i miss it
i don wana lose these friends
we may not remember each other forever
but at least for the nxt 2 years in poly we will not forget each other

but i knw things will nvr be the same
not like before
no grudges, no attitudes, no hatred, just pure friendship
overnight mahjong and kbox seems so far away
i don like this feeling
i haven played enuf
i wana do crazy stuff with my friends
i wana be with them
hai..................

cscc or dance
affected my mind for very long
i actually made my decision already
but the once firm decision is starting to shake
i dno wad i should do

Start of school tmr
not at all excited
not at all stress
not at all happy
because the time has come to make my decision
and it would be final
no more last min backing out
hw??


Lastly i wana thank zumbi.
u guys being bonded means the most to me and mummy
u have been my dream since FO camp 08/09
i'm glad u guys are still meeting up
nvr forget this friendship
i love u guys.

ZUMBI ZAI!

the way i am .

GENRE SHOWCASE FINALLY OVER!
had a blast of a time last night!
shall let the video do the talking mann




ps. i'm the one looking up with the hat in the beginning. hehe

the way i am .

CCA showcase is today!
waited super long for this day.
lots of obstacles
really thank my choreographer for giving me this chance
hope i can do it well. hehe
TONIGHT I'LL BE ON YOU TUBE!
SDZ POPPERS!!!!



People change
i didn't expect it to happen so fast

the way i am .

BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION SPREE!!
thanks to everyone tat made it possible!

8thapril2009
met up with cscc people
thanks to johnson and crystal for organizing it
ate dimsum while some ate subway
gina and derrick convinced me tat they are quarrelling very seriously
wthhhhhhhhhh tio scam
anw watched mallcop
damn funny and hilarious
the day did not just end here
after some photo taking
went home take clothes and off to berlinda house to play mahjong overnight
only me derrick edward aaron johnson went
johnson dno how to play so the rest of us play
fun la fun.
berlinda one house lose 3 house
hehehe







9th april 2009
morning yanling came over to pass me cake and present
after tat went to watch fast and furious 4 before having dinner at chemar
haha
no la is marche
the food not bad la
especially the potato strip thing
hehe
thanks yanling for everything
very gan dong!




Some of my presents

thanks daddy!

thanks zumbi!

THANKS EVERYBODY!!!

the way i am .

FIRST PRE BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION!
waited for zumbi at city hall for super long sia
den i see like only 6 zumbi ppl den a bit sian diao
ended up at kenny rogers for dinner
when i reach there super cua sai can
got hecate silifer and of course my beloved zumbi!
and some of the fellow gls of course

after tat i saw a super big card on the table
on it written(we tore a sheet of our calender for you!!)
gan dong ness!
tnks zumbi!!!!!
got lots of ppl to thank man.

FIRSTLY and MOST IMPORTANTLY must thank PEARLYN ZHEN ZHU LIN!
i knw the planning must have been tough
really appreciate it
thanks mummy!

Secondly THANKS ZUMBI for the present and card!
all of u have been wonderful kids!
hope to see u all in club more often yea!
ZUMBI KERMAK MAK!
OLE OLE ARK ARK!

Thirdly thanks to edward, gina, junxian, jing wen, berlinda and pearlyn for the shirt
beautiful shirt! hehe.
is the thought that counts!
tnks fellow GLS!

Thanks hecate for the card!
although i dno most of u
but i think ur "parents" are very lucky to have u guys as kids!
thanks for all the well wishes

Thanks SIS for the card
super gan dong with the words u said
i shall train more of my angry face
hehe. U have my ultimate respect too!

few mroe days before it is official!
18 years old here i come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




i dno hw to deal with situations like this
i just hope for ur understanding
similar things will keep on happening
someone please teach me
how to deal with it
i'm sorry

the way i am .

FOW prep today near the sea.
first time i was a station IC
not bad la see ppl do mua chee
see already everybody xiao xi xi

poem siaaa

anw i already try my best not to oversay anyone already
is a habit tat is difficult to change
i try to keep my mouth shut le
but the words just keep flowing
this is not me
but i cant change overnight wad
wad to do?
like me or hate me lor.
hai.....................

the way i am .

mayb i was wrong...
crossing over the line..
i didn't knw the friendship between all those around me was so weak
i tot u all knew my character since day 1
i will keep my mouth tight frm nw on
sorry if i said anything tat offended u all

the way i am .

HEY PEOPLE!! time to blog! wanted to wait for the pictures first budden argh who cares!

i just finish my nine days 8 nights of camp. when came back super shag sia

kk first 3days 2 nights was scholars camp
first day took a super long boat ride from batam to the island.
telunas beach!
went there did some ice breaking games and before i knew it i was packing up to go into the jungle already. JUNGLE LEH!
the trek was okay la. about 8KILOMETRES ONLY!
den rested below a waterfall.
CUA SAI! we have to climb the waterfall to get to our bunk siaa
LIFE AND DEATH MAN!!!!

den walk all the slippery rocks if slip only break head break bones ar!
den finally reach our campsite which is like on a slope.
den cause there like pitch dark at 5
den we have to pitch our hammock in darkness using only our torchlight
so we have to cook our dinner in dark beside the river
ate steam rice and curry!
not bad right!! but all is can food. except rice la
den after washing up everything we decided to try to bathe in the river
FREAKING COLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!
rocks FREAKING SLIPPERY!!!!
but is an experience la

hmmm so second day treck back same route.
but now is treck DOWN THE WATERFALL!
so if drop means OKBYE for me!
hahaha!but i survived

when reach back is super relieved laaa
the remaining days played normal games la
but the food there is DAMN NICE!!!
dno where they get the food from
but is DAMN NICEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!


ok so after all the okbye with the ppl there
went back to school for prep camp so we tested out a lot of things la
another new experience
den it was the time of truth.
i got "married" to miss PEARLYN
haha. and on the actual camp we got our grp which is ZUMBI!!!

at first saw them think they like very low like tat
but as the days goes by.. enjoyed sweat everything tgt
i can see they getting more and mroe high!
start to lead the whole camp with camp songs lehhh
o my tian! super sense of achievement
last day i really feel even more bonded with them when they all say they wana go weekend
feel so happy!

ZUMBI ZAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



School is starting. BROTHERS SISTERS OUT THERE!!! OVERNIGHT MAHJONG AND KBOX PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!

the way i am .

JOSHUA
EIGHTEEN!
singapore poly!
09041991
squall_joshua@hotmail.com
joshua-thewayiam.blogspot.com

IPOD NANO!
Black Dickies shorts
Wireless earphone
High Cut AF-1 shoes
Sony CyberShot T series
Billabong Board shorts
NUM brazilian praia
Foam caps
all Coloured contacts
Oakleys shades
Refurnish my room
MONEY MONEY MONEY!
i think tats all..... for now!!

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